Death of an LTR

Last night I cried myself to sleep

I cried because it finally hit me

I had poured my heart and soul into that relationship

We had made plans, made commitments

To spend the rest of our lives together

Until somebody threw in the towel

Piece by piece

Because it wasn’t working anymore

Somebody had given up on us

Somewhere along the way

So I had to give up on us

Because I had consented to a relationship of two

And I found myself in a relationship of one

Somewhere along the way

I got fucked over

But it’s okay (it’s not okay)

I fall down and I get back up

Dust myself off and mourn the death

Of the relationship I had consented to

Retrieve bits and pieces of my soul

From that relationship that I did not consent to

Slowly but surely a death to mourn

For at first the body goes

Then then things get dropped off

The heart is numb while feet shuffle along

And new plans are made

To un-fuck myself over

And walk away from this burial shroud

Of hopes and dreams